Thought I would try out this place since myspace is rampid with a bunch of people who I rather not read my thoughts anymore. Also a lot of negativety has been radiating from that place for me lately..
So we were in Meddy/Sacramento for a good 2 weeks.. I think I block out my emotions for Oregon and the people living there so I don't have to hurt so I don't feel the longing of being there with them every day. But of course my emotions catch me by suprise and I find out how much I love and care for them AS I am leaving.. Its just so hard.. I mean even more so that I am a mommy to a sweet boy who loves them and is probably waking up every day wondering why were not at his Oma's house or seeing all their Puppies! I really hope we leave this dump and go to San Diego soon.. I like Virgina and all the sights I have seen here but I would like to move on.....cuz I been here and done it all.. I'm not gonna cry if I never see this place again!
I just wake up sometimes wishing we could just say to the Navy we quit! Were done! Were going to Oregon....stuck in this for another 2 1/2 years but at least if were in San Diego it will be a bit easier........ west coast is so much more relaxed and free then the east coast.. I miss it..
I feel like my life with my Shawn and Vinny is blossoming but I feel like I am waiting...waiting for that life that I want so desperately to be complete.. to be free from the chains of this job he is doing for his country..
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